I had lunch with a friend and they attempted to tell me a few what they call “home truths.” Some stuff he thought that I needed to hear. The first bombshell was I shouldn’t have my tumour operation and just go out with a bang – a blaze of glory even. He has an affinity for the dramatic to say the least. Afterwards the little seeds of doubt that he had planted started to take root and had me thinking about some of my recent choices especially in regards to entanglements with people I have in my life – one more specifically. This led me to writing a letter that he will never see (hopefully)
Dear *My special someone*
Over the past couple of months I you have made me happier than I have been in quite some time. I usually don’t allow my emotions to take control of any situation but this time I they ran riot. Even when trying not to think about you, you pop into my head and it makes me smile. We both talked of future projects together and made silly plans to do them. To be honest I could honestly say I really liked and cared for you.
You know that I would do anything for you and have done so. At your request I have rearranged my timetable, and driven miles just to see your smiling face for only a moment. Now I am doing this for you.
It was pointed out that it was inappropriate that I continue our “friendship”. There were a number of reasons sited. So I will try and run through them as they were explained to me by my “friend”.
There is such a considerable age difference. This means that we would have nothing in common to talk about. I wouldn’t be able to keep up with someone younger than myself because I’m going to 40 on my next birthday. While you will still be wanting to go out and have fun until the wee small hours of the morning I will be either working or too tired to accompany you. Should I start looking at retirement homes for myself?
At the moment I am a ticking time-bomb with the whole tumour thing. You shouldn’t be stuck with someone who could get sick/die or even worse end up living with a colostomy bag for the rest of their lives. You deserve to be with someone young, fit and healthy. Granted this one does worry me but having two special people in my life (you and my son) demanding for me to have the operation because they want me around for a while yet has given me the jumpstart I needed to keep the fight.
My friend also pointed out that even our education statuses are poles apart, with me just about to finish my doctorate and you not even attending university. I don’t see that as a problem but as my friend pointed out that you may become resentful about or believe that I don’t think you’re smart enough. I understand the difference between book smarts and street smarts and know that everybody in this world has something (a talent or skill that is unique to them) that makes them special. These people are the ones that make sure that the world keeps going, while those that put themselves on their educational pedestal still don’t know how to change a washer in a tap or change a car tyre if it gets a flat and who do they have to call??? Those who they look down on and refuse to look at as intellectual equals.
Apparently looks are something that I also need to concerned with. It was commented that you have to look of a bogan and I need to be dating someone of extremely good looking. Because I am so sort after by painter and sculpters the world over, I should be only associating with the beautiful people. In all honesty I don’t care if you looked like the back end of a horse, as long as you make me happy, and treat me right.
To my friends disgust I recent joined the HEMP (Help End Marijuana Prohibition). He (my friend) believed that it was because of your influence. Despite the fact that I am a grown man and able to make decisions on my own. Truth is I know a number of people that enjoy the green and they know that I do not partake, it’s their choice. Just the same as it was my choice to smoke for years. I believe that free will is an illusion cooked up by the government to make those living in the world (Sheeple) feel better about what is happeneing around them. In this instance smoking the green is a lifestyle choice, something you choose to do on your own free will. I honestly believe that it would do wonders for the medical industry. In a way I wish I had thought about smoking it when I had cancer last time because the pain mind blowing.
So as you can see there are a great number of reasons that we shouldn’t be together. That being said I can think of some that convince me otherwise and they are the ones that are important to me.
I love the way your hand fits in mine like it was designed to be there
You make me smile
You know that I ama dreamer and need to be brought back to earth ocassinally
You take my feelings and thoughts into consideration before doing things
the list goes on but I think you get the picture. I continue our “friendship” because not because i do it in spite of anyone or because I am forced to do so, I do it because I want to and thats all that matters.