Some time ago I spoke about how my ex / Now housemate had disclosed his sexual preferrence as asexual. He said he was not attracted to anyone and could not see himself with anyone in the near future.
Last night after a fairly hectic day and very minimal sleep I decided to go to be early. While laying in bed reasing a new book “Klingon Art of War” I overheard a conversation between him and someone (I found out later to be named Scott). I know I shouldn’t have been eavesdropping but I couldn’t help myself after I heard the line “I miss you too.” I’m sure that if you heard that you would have listened in as well.
Im not sure if many people are aware of the sounds of flirting… The difference in the laugh of a person, the slight change in octive etc. Last night I heard the lot If I was sitting out there I would have seen him bat his eyelids and flick his hair as well. Worse thing is because I was so tired I fell asleep but I fell asleep angry. A few hours later I when I woke up I felt sick to the stomach because I had got so wound up about it. I can tell you now that was me for the rest of the night. At 4am I was unable to sit in my room and look at the same four wall any longer so I grabbed the dog and we went for a drive to help clear my head. I know the dog enjoyed it too with his head half hanging out of the window. We ended up getting back around half past five.
After I rang my son to make sure that he was up and ready to go to school at 7 I lay back down for a couple of hours before I went to get my tattoo touched up. Just before my alarm went off at 9, he came and knocked on my door asking when I needed the bathroom to have a shower etc because he needed to get ready to go out. I then confronted him and asked him if it was a date. Like a naughty puppy he looked at the floor and answered yes.
I’m glad I have some self control because it took everything to not jump out of my bed and rip his throat out. It was then I uttered 5 words that made me realise I had become an adult “I’m really disappointed in you”. I kid you not, a person can do many things to me and I will forgive them and/or make excuses for their behaviour… However, if you lie to me I will hunt you down and I will make you bleed! I don’t know who was more shocked that I didn’t loose my shit, him or me. After telling him I was disappointed in him I then went on to tell him why I was so disappointed – the fact he lied; he manipulated me by using my field of research as a tool to do it; the fact he was a coward; and because of this I didn’t know if I could trust him (someone who I thought would never lie to me and did it so easily). Deep down however I was more disappointed in myself for allowing myself to trust someone else and have them destroy my faith, again.
Later on after he got home from being with his gentleman caller he reluctantly told me that the date was a bust and that he was so wrapped up in himself that my housemate could hardly get a word in. Great talker, Bad listener. (Okay so I’m going to gloat for a moment here.) He had one of the best things in his life – someone who was smart, understanding and allowed him to have his own time alone etc and he threw that all away on the prospect of what could have been. He has no one to blame but himself.